Day 15 of 40 Days of Thanks

I am thankful that me and my husband are still One... We've been together for almost 20 Yrs.. (married 13) we had our share of good times, bad times and very bad times.. We have had a couple of cracks in our foundation but has always managed to repair them.. So I am extremely Thankful to still be his wife, and that he Wants to be my husband...

I love me some Him... (even when I'm mad at him)

Age old Question..

I was on Facebook today and I came across this post from a group I'm in...and basically the Question was...

Will men judge you or look at you different if you have sex with them on the first date...

ok I can't believe this question is still in rotation... really I can't believe it...

so I am going to make this short and sweet (well maybe not so sweet)

 Most or a lot of  men will say... Don't do it on the first date, or yes I will judge you..
But what about you (men) what about your worth.. When you have sex on the first date should you not be judged...
 Damn that's a double standard for your ass..

Ladies if a man judges you on when you decide to have sex with him, and it's his first date with you. Just like it's your first date with him.. Then think about it, do you really want to be with his judgemental ass.. Cause whatever he thinks of you, he should be thinking the same thing for his damn self... Smh

Really..

Ok you may or may not know who Shawty Lo is ..but he is a "rapper" (and I use that word loosely) out of Atlanta Georgia...and apparently he has 11 kids, 10 baby momma's and a 19 yr old girlfriend...smh..

Now Shawty Lo was in the group D4L and they had one song called "Laffy Taffy" yeah like the candy Laffy Taffy... and he had another song by himself called "Dey Know" but it was only a hit after the remix with Lil Wayne, Ludacris, Plies and Young Jeezy.. you know the song "Big Ups to All my Haters" yeah that one...


Now let's talk about this show....SMH this man has 10 baby momma's and 11 kids... I need to say this again 10 baby momma's and 11 kids.... that's just crazy, especially cause I thought he was handicapped...(lol I'm sorry but he does look like it)...and on top of all of this he has a 19 yr old Girlfreind and his ass is 36...and how about his oldest kid is 20...

Now I watched the trailer....and this whole set up is crazy... I believe they living like Sista Wives... not to be mistaken by the show Sister Wives... and the more I watched it the crazier it got...
They have nicknames for each baby momma too smh...like the
"The First Lady" which is not a bad nick name but her real name is E-Cria?? um ok...
Angela aka Chocolate "The Fighter baby momma",  
Amanda "The Jealous baby momma" (um what you got to be jealous of..it's 10 of yall)....
Sujuan 'The wanna be bougie baby momma" (um really want to be bougie...but you agreed to be on this Rachet ass show)...                       moving right along...
Tamara "The no drama baby momma" (I'm just gone keep going)...
Serena "The Shady baby momma" um ok...
Liana aka Pebbles "the Baby momma from Hell" well personally I think ...nevermind...

I think that's all they may be on the show...at least that's all that the trailer shows...
and then there is the 19 yr old Girlfriend Ashlin...

Now there are a couple things I want to point out from this trailor...
1. He missed his kids graduation to attend to his Girlfriends Graduation...Yes you heard me right...
2. And it's too funny how they refer to each other as "The Baby Mommas"
3. The 19 yr old girlfriend, is cleaning his ears and cutting his toe nails..

I don't understand this level of rachetedness at all... Does he have fairy dust on the tip of his dick... cause I wouldn't even want people to know I was one of his "Baby Momma's" especially if I was #4-10...Ijs

Now I don't know if I will watch it or not... even though I feel like I want to (don't judge me) but I don't know if I should... but drama makes for good TV or defitnely a good laugh...

2 more things..

I wouldn't be surprised if the new girlfriend becomes baby momma 11 with the 12th kid...
and are you sure he is not handicapped???

The Trailer for "All My Baby Mommas"

Enjoy :-)

December 26, 2012

It's the Day after Christmas.... So of course yesterday was Christmas... Christmas 2012 and it was Me, My Husband, My Daughter and My Mom (who I haven't seen for Christmas since December 1996) so it was nice to have her here with my family... and the only person that was missing was My Son (he's encarcerated :-/).

Our Day started at about 6:30 am when the Princess woke up, excited and ready to open gifts... We got out the bed and (me, the hubs and mom) and met in the Living Room, and proceeded to go thru gift after, gift after gift.. (most of them were for the Princess) ..

And after all the gifts were open and everbody looked over the things they've gotten.. the excitement of Christmas was kinda over...I know Christmas is not just about giving gifts... It's also about Family... And When you have a small family, and lives in a town with no other family members... Holidays gets, well becomes routine...

Yeah my mom was there, but it's still just felt kinda like any other day...after the present's everything dies down. I miss the whole family aspect of Holidays... with cousins, aunts, uncles and family friends, that may come by and have dinner and just talk and reminise about things we used to do, or just how our lives are going with the kids, work etc...

We don't have that, and we haven't had that in years... Sometimes I wish I would've had more kids. So My kids could enjoy the whole big family thing... not just on holidays but all the time... and as they get older and have kids, the family would just keep growning and getting bigger...hmmmm but then I think, she has never had that, so is she missing out or is it me missing it...

I'm sure this feeling will pass, once the Holiday Season is over. But I'm pretty sure it will come back with each Holiday....

Day 6 of 40 days of Thanks

I am thankful for Hugs....

I love Hugs, they are so nice, and warm. They feel good... a hug can mean different things, Hi, see you later, I love you and sometimes they can just be comforting... either way they feel good... and I'm giving out Cyber Hugs to anyone who is visitnig my blog ((((((HUGS))))) :-)

#1/21/13 Fiercely Fabulous and 40

Opening My Eyes....

I started on Dec 13, doing a 40 days of Thanks and Praying 3 times a day for 40 days..and I am only 6 days in and God has definitely been revealing some things and some people in my life that I need to change.. Things that I had been struggling with are now clear... I mean if it's only been 6 days I am so excited about the days to come..

I have mixed feelings about turning 40, but mixed or not I am turning 40 on Jan 21, 2013 ...but I want, rather feel I need to change some things, about me... to help me be a better more Fabulous Me... and when you want or feel the need to Change the only person who can help you is God. And since I know that I am definitely taking full advantage of it, with an open heart, and a open soul.

I know that this journey can only make me better... and prepare me for my 40's. This a new chapter in my life and since I'm not getting any younger, I want to welcome it with open arms. Now during this process somethings and some people will stay around and other things and people won't... shoot some people haven't even made it to day 6 (which is today) let's see how many will make it to day 10...lol

One thing is for certain though, at the end of the 40 days, if it's in God's will I will definitely be Standing and my light WILL be so bright you will need your sunglasses and still won't see my full Shine...

MY!!!! Facbook... (focus on the word MY!)

Ok My name it Tamiko (Storey) Edwards... and I am not alway politically corriect. Nor do I aim to be, especially on My Facebook... (focusing again on MY!!) Facebook is a form of entertainment me to me, along with some seriousness and some newsworthy things as well as a platform to vent, whether it be radomly venting or if you are venting toward a certain person...either way when you or I log on it clearly say "What's on YOUR mind" now to my hometown Friends (Flintstones) and old TDF Song my come to mind...but for others there are a number of things that may come to mind... Because the Question "What's on YOUR mind" is a very broad question and depending on your frame of mind when you open YOUR facebook, anything and I mean anything could end up on YOUR Facebook... at least I know anything could end up on MY Facebook...

I've been know to post some Nice stuff, some Serious stuff, some Stupid stuff, some Fierce pictures, Some Uplifitng things, some NOT so Nice stuff, some Off the wall stuff etc.. you know just stuff... and one thing about me, 85% of the things I post are just random thoughts that are in my head, (if you only knew the things that go thru my head...smh..) but since it's MY Facebook I should be able to post anything (right) and I am ready for any comments that come along...whether you agree or not...and it doesn't matter to me if you do or don't... I'm not going to get mad, nor am I going to facebook beef with you, because you are entitled to YOUR OWN opinion just like I am... although sometimes I feel like I'm not entitled to one, if MY post is not politically or correct, or not nice at all... somebody some where feels the need to tell me how mean or I'm no better than nobody else, or something crazy to that effect....

One thing I've learned since being on facebook, if somebody post something that hits home with you... if you never respond to the post, Nobody will ever know your situation... (just an FYI)

I see plenty of things as I go down my newsfeed that could easily be about me or something in my life... I don't get offened, nor do I instantly think they are talking about me. I don't think that the person who posted think they are better than the next person...maybe that's just how they feel today...sometimes I respond sometimes I keep scrolling... thats the whole Joy of Facebook, the fact that you can just keep scrolling...and another JOY is the Unfriend Option ~_~

I don't think I'm better than anyone, I'm a sinner just like everybody else, and don't let me start couting my flaws...whew  1, 2, 3,.......111.....321... yeah I'm going to stop there, cause that list goes on and on...

So I'm going to say once again, it's MY Facebook and it ask me "What's on Your mind" (meaning MY mind)  just like Yours means You (really it does)... I don't Facebook to please others, I Facebook cause I like too, let me say that one more time I don't Facebook to please others, I Facebook because I like it....and I've come to realize some people are on my Facebook just to see what I may or may not say...

AND.....

 At the end of the day, If you delete me I won't feel any type of way about you, and I will still smile and wave at you if  I see you in the Real World...

Day 2 of 40 Days of Thanks....

Thank you for My Husband, My Lover, My Best Friend Adrian Edwards, he loves me just the way I am, he allows Me to be Me.. Sometimes I don't know if that's a good or a bad thing.. But either way I'm Thankful

We have had our ups and downs and way downs..but seem to still come out with our love on top.. I love him and he loves me...and I'm looking forward to growing old with him and once again I say Thank you Jesus...

#1/21/13 Fiercely Fabulous and 40

Sandy Brook Elementary School in Newton CT......

Today I was at work, working and Facebooking and I came across a post of one of my friends that said something like..."OMG who would kill kids" instantly I got a chill in my body cause the thought of killing kids is just crazy...at least so I thought... as I continued to read I saw more and more post about, killing kids, and a school. So I immediately went to my trusty news source MSN and low and behold the top story was about a gunman going into an ELEMENTARY School and killing kids and teachers, and some parents... I was like Whaaat the Hell... who does this...my heart was instantly heavy, and the more I read, the more my eyes began to water...

 

 All I was thinking is who would do such a thing, and it seem like with every update there were more and more bodies... with a grand total of 28 people with 20 being kids... yes kids..kindergarten kids...(Lord please be with this whole community)

ok now what kind of coward would kill kids... cause you definitely have to be a coward..these are babies who can't or hasn't hurt any damn body...especially this fool...and he killed his own momma in this tragic, tragic event...Who does this...well his name is or I should say was Ryan Lanza...and another thing that really bothers me is, how come when these delusional people snap out and kill people, they end up killing themselves.... UGH that just burns me up.. if you wanted to kill your own fool self then that's what the hell you should've done, why take all these innocent people, especially these babies...

And the even sadder part is the aftermath...All the parent's who lost their babies, all the other babies that witness their classmates die, and the babies that even heard the gunshots... this selfish son of a bitch has done something to all these babies that they will never forget and will need counseling and therapy and will prob have night terrors ....smh

My heart goes out that whole community...I said a prayer for them today and I will continue to pray for them, I couldn't even fathom or understand this kind of pain....

God please, put your arms around this community as they work towards healing...

Elementary school massacre

Yep I'll be 40 in 40 days..........

I have a sister who is 8 years older than I am, and I can remember when she turned 30... I told her damn you're old...lol and here I am about to be 40 and I don't even feel like I've grown all the way up. Funny how times flies and it will pass you by if you are not paying attention...

So yeah I'm almost 40, let me say that again Almost 40 hmmmmm I've been preparing myself for 40 every since I turned 39 and I still don't feel like I'm ready...but I don't have a choice cause as long as I keep living, it's going to keep approaching...

So in preperation for this day January 21, 2013 when I do officially turn 40, I'm going to do somethings, First I am going to Pray 3 times a day for 40 days focusing on Family, Future,Self enhancement,(wife, mother, friend etc)  I am going to do a 40 days of Thanks (because God has been so good to little ole ME), and I am going to amp up my work out and do 3 days a week of cardio... which is probably going to be the hardest, but it needs to be done.

I decided to do these things for a couple of reasons, I've been thru a lot in the last 3 years, I've had Breast Cancer, 2 major surgies, 1 minor surgery, and I've been shot... so I am thankful to be alive... let me stay that again I am Thankful to be Alive... very Thankful

Also I want to just want my 40's to be different for me than my 30's or my 20's for that fact..I've done a lot of things and been hurt and have hurt, so I want do be hurt less and do way less hurting, so with this Self enhancement I am going to cut off somethings and people in my life..that either shouldn't be there, or have surved thier purpose in my life...

I just want to be the Best Me I can BE...

Yep I'll be 40 in 40 days, and I'm going to bring it in with a bang...

#1/21/73 Fiercely Fabulous and 40....Watch out World Grown up Tamiko is definitely coming....

"Real Rap" Music

Today's Rap music is nothing like the Rap music from back in the Day...as is shouldn't this is a different generation of rappers...

Now what bothers me is when people (around age 30-40+) says oh this new music is not rap...... Well who made you the rap music decider..lol

People act like Old school rap artist were all real and raw...NOT let's start with Uncle Luke nothing he said held substance, but if doo doo brown came on right now, these same people who say this new music is not rap would get up and say, oh this was the Jam... and what about MC Hammer, You can't touch this...um really... oh and Oaktown 357 really Juicy got them going crazy...lol come on now... or MC Shan... or how about this verse Milk is chilling what more can I say I'm top billing....classic right NOT!!! and there are a whole bunch more I could name but I won't...

Now we did have some really good rappers, just to name a few Biggie, Tupac, Nas, Rakim, Nas, Jay Z and Uncle Scaface just to name some... and the funny thing is, Most of these rappers are still around now along with some other good artist like Kendrick Lamar, Fat Joe, TI, Rick Ross, and Kanye West just to name a few here also...

So no matter how you feel about the new music, and just because you don't care for 2 Chainz or Future or Wacka Flocka Flame (I laugh at that name) or Drake or Lil Wayne or Meek Millz or Wale or any other new wrapper...dosen't mean that they are not "Real" Rappers...


and one more thing, the same way you are talking about this new music, that's the same way your parents thought about your music, and it will continue to go on like that until the end of time......

Fabulous, Almost 40 and Greatly Flawed….

Here I am almost 40 (41 days to my birthday) and still seems like I can’t get this life right, being a mom right, being a wife right, hell just being Me doesn’t seem right sometimes…




(disclaimer – this is not written for sympathy)



When I look over my life, I see all the things I’ve done wrong, the things I’ve done right, and I can’t really tell which one out weighs the other…hmmmmm it’s a very close race…

A very close race… but most of the time all I can focus on is what I’ve done bad….



I just keep telling myself , Tamiko you are going to do things differently and make better choices, yeah I do them differently but I’m not to sure if my choices are better…



Now don’t get me wrong I love being a mother, I love being a wife, I love myself, even though there are a couple of things I would or should change about my self and upgrade my Fabulousness….



As I type this, I can feel my eyes began to water because it forces me to reflect on some things good and bad, and it gets overwhelming…..and let’s me know once again, that there are areas in this life that (God has given me to live) I need to make better decisions.. to make sure my good deeds will out weigh my bad decisions….



Fabulous, Almost 40 and Greatly Flawed…
but most people know me as Tamiko....

Once Again....

I've been telling myself for a while that I should start back blogging..I was going to wait til the 2013, but I thought why wait...so here I am...I'm usually on Facebook, now I love Facebook but sometimes people are too damn sensitive or want to assume someone is talking about them...and with my blog its more personal to me. I dont have to sugarcoat anything, nor do i have to deal with any attitudes...because I blog for me,I dont do it for feedback, although i appreciate it...

So Once Again, its Official...I'm back to blogging...

WHITNEY HOUTSON 08/09/63 – 02/12/12

Such a sad, sad day in Music. Ms. Whitney Houston is Dead, man oh man, I’m speechless. It’s unbelievable but it’s so true. The World has lost a Diva. And Yes she was a Diva, no matter how you feel about Ms. Whitney, no matter the bad choices she made, she is and will always be a Diva.

My heart goes out to her Daughter, her Mother and to all that was closely connected to her.

May you Rest in Peace Ms. Whitney…
It saddens me to know that you will never grace a stage again….

Dancing.....Again....

Well I started back dancing this year. Now those who really know me, know I Love to Dance…That’s my passion…I feel so free when I’m dancing…

So like I said I started back this year (well technically last year 2011) since the new year (2012) just started. I attend The Art of Dance School in Minneapolis (so does the Princess) and I have to say I love it there.

So currently I’m only doing one class, but will be starting a second class soon. I hope this second class don’t take to much out of me, because even though I enjoy dancing, I haven’t done anything like this in about 7 or 8 yrs. But I’m getting back into the swing of things. I’m so glad I decided to start back, not only am I losing weight and getting back in shape and having fun, I’ve met some wonderful women……

I will keep you guys posted on how things go…We have a recital coming up in May or June…

I’m excited about getting Costumes… when we get them, I will post a pic…