WWW - World Wide Web...

It's amazing the things that you come across while surfing the web, Sometimes I wonder do people realize that the web is world wide, not just local, not just in America. If they really knew this, would they be more conscious of what they put on here? hmmmmm or would they not give a damn, or how about what you put on the web NEVER goes away. Now I have to admit I've written some emails that I wouldn't want anybody else to read expect the person it was for, and I do know they can be recovered, but I can't say that there is picture of me, that I put on the web that I don't want people to do see, or that my come back to haunt me.

People need to realize and I'm talking grown people, or people who consider themselves grown, because Kids do dumb stuff, we all did the difference is when we (my generation and older) were young, we had regular pics, no email, we used pencils and paper, we had no cell phones web cams etc. and we still did dumb stuff, but today the dumb stuff these kids are doing is being documented FOREVER, and one day maybe just maybe when they become adults, it may come back to haunt them, ...and The grown people need to act like they know damn better before their kids come across some of this shit on the Internet, cause it's really not that hard to come by....

Check out you Kids Daycare Provider

Ok so my husband always post news links on his Facebook page, and this one I feel like I really need to speak on.. the title of the article was "Sex Toys, Pornography, and Drugs Found in Pennsylvania Day Care"

Ok first watch the video, and you can find the story here BVBlackSpin




What the hell is really goings on here.I don't even know what to say, I mean around th kids??? Who?? What?? Why?? and nobody knew this lady was a drug dealer? I mean none of the parents knew? (Somebody knew but didn't care) Did they even check out this place out before they put their kids there? Did they check to see if she was even licensed with the state? I have so many Questions and not enough answers, and then in the story a where the mother was talking about I don't know where I'm gonna take my kids, shouldn't you be thanking God that your kids are ok. You will find another day care, it may take a minute, at least it should... because now you should make sure that the environment is safe. I'm just so confused none of the parents did an unexpected drop in. Did they visit the toy room, (more than just baby toys were in there) I just don't understand...
But I do know that the people running the daycare will have room waiting for they ass in the jail house....

Just ask...

Now a days there is so much speculation about just Bullshit. And I'm so tired of all this shit. I don't hate anybody, I'm not mad at anybody, I'm not jealous of anybody and I'm not beefing with anybody. It's just that simple and if I say something or post something on MY facebook page, if you think it's about you Call me my number is on Facebook, or inbox me and I will tell you. and the funny thing is most of my stats are random. Or when I read somebody else's status I kinda piggy back off what in said in the responses.....When I post positive things it's ok. But as soon as I say something out of pocket I got be a hater. smh... but it is My Page, so I should be able to say what I want. Right?? there should be clause that says. Say what you want, as long as you are not offending people, or hating on people, or insulting people or point the finger on people, or placing the blame on people... you get the point

I don't even have time to be a hater or worry about what nobody else is doing. So please if you are reading this blog, please stop the inboxes, the text telling me this and that. I really don't care. Stop calling me with bullshit cause I really don't care.I don't do drama at all. I don't have the energy for this shit. I'm too busy working on a better Me, and more Fabulous Me, My Happy awaits me. it really does.

And when I get to My Happy, OMG it's gonna be so amazing to go along with all the other amazing things I have, like my daughter she is so amazing there are no words to describe her. My husband he's so amazing he a blessing to me. My son, even though he is a knuckle head, he is still amazing...

Right now I'm just in a transition stage, and I will be here for a while, because I have a lot of cleansing to do, with my mind, body and soul, but while I'm in this process, I don't hate anybody, I'm not mad at anybody and I'm not jealous of anybody, and I'm not beefing with anybody. Because if I was then I would never find my Happy.

So now I'm just gonna take a Facebook Break, from the drama, from people, from people.

and let me put this out here also, just because I'm choosing to work on me and revise my inner circle, doesn't mean I'm mad or upset, or beefing with anybody, nor does it mean that now I'm hating on people or don't want to see them happy or get ahead. I wish the best for everybody. I'm not a jealous hearted person by no means, never had and never will be.

All this means, is this situation no longer works for me, and I need to change somethings, and since the only person I can change is me, then that's who needs to be alone and be worked on. That's all I'm doing.

I Hope the Therapist can help me!

I fell like nobody understands me. Or Nobody can really relate to who I am. I've made some choices to do things differently and sometimes I feel like I need to rethink these choices, even though I know they are better for me, or at least I think they are. What if I'm just giving up on things, or overreacting..(because I've heard that more than once). Why is it that I'm the one who always have to give in, or the one who people always do wrong, is it because they think or know I will forgive them. My mom did say people will forgive you before they give you permission.
Is that I'm just to sensitive, caring or compassionate about other people and that leaves me open to get hurt. Or is it I'm just the one who lets people run over them. If so then why do people say I'm mean, or too outspoken, or my favorite a bit much to deal with, or this one (which is new to me) I'm full of drama...lol

I'm so tired of not being about to trust people, because of all the times I've been hurt, or not being able to be who I really am, for the fear of people saying things like, oh she thinks she better than people, or she is too much. or having to hold back because somebody will take something I've said the wrong way and hold it against me instead of just saying something, or If I feel there is an issue I can't even address it because then I'm overreacting...

What happen to accepting people for who they are, and if you don't like who they are, then move around, and that's ok too...

I'm tired of having my feelings hurt and crying and trying to hold relationships together with out any substance. Tired of the bullshit, and the secrets. Tired of not being comfortable.

So that's why I got me a therapist. I really hope she can help me sort all of this out and get back my happy. Get to being the person I should be.

Now I'm not saying that I do no wrong, or that I'm perfect by no means, I have so many flaws I stopped counting...but I'm caring and I KNOW how to be a friend, I've proven this many times and still has been hurt...


I know people are gonna say you have a husband, and Yes I do and he is wonderful, but the only problem is not only can't he relate to my situation, he's bias...

A Much Needed Trip..

Well I'm home from my trip to Alabama for my cousin's birthday, and boy I am so glad I was able to make it. My cousin who is like my Sister, the sister I never had. She is so wonderful, I love being in her company. We laughed and joked, we talked and vented. I was good to be around somebody who I KNOW will love me for me no matter what. Somebody who I didn't have to worry about if I said something that should would hold it against me or throw it back in my face later. She is so wonderful, beautiful inside and out. Her spirit....Her Spirit is so Genuine... We just had a ball the whole weekend. I love how we vibe...how we have so many things in common, how we can understand what's it's like to be a part of this crazy, dysfunctional family and still get along. No jealousy, no envy, no hate...just love...

While I was there I also met one of her friends in person. (We're facebook friends) and she is so Real it's ridiculous...and we hit it off instantly...and again, no jealousy, no envy, no hate.. just grown brown women getting along...Where they do that at....lol apparently in Alabama...

I love you Cousin/Sister...I wish we lived closer, but I promise we will not go that long without seeing each other ever again...

I'm so glad I had that time to just get away, see some new things, experience some new people....it was a much needed trip...