The Pastor's Secretary Called Me...

If you've been reading my blog you know my relationship with me and my church...

Well the other day I was out shopping with my mom. And my phone is always on vibrate. (so if you call and I don't answer I'm not ignoring you) anyways. I had a missed call and a voice mail. I checked the voice mail, and it's a message from my Pastor's Secretary. She left me a message saying my pastor wanted to talk with me. WOW right. I know it was the deaconess or the church nurse who told him about my situation, now he wants to talk.

and guess what? I didn't even call him back. Why? because I really don't know what to say or expect. So now tomorrow is Sunday, and I know he will see me at church. I guess I will see how this goes. If we don' t talk tomorrow. I promise I will call him on Monday..

Happy Birthday Daddy!

Today is the Hubs Birthday. I won't say how old he is, cause he still claims to be 27. Like he ain't a part of the dirty 30 crew. But it's OK I still love him.

So I just want to take time to tell you Happy Birthday. I know we don't have anything planned. We are just gonna wing it. But I hope to see your smile, and I will do what I can to make sure you enjoy yourself this weekend. I love you Daddy...

~ Your Wife..

My Follow - up Appt.

I had a Dr's appointment on Tues 08/25/09, to follow up from surgery and to see if my drains could be taken out. Well the follow up part went ok. My surgeon said I was healing very well..so I was happy about that. But when it came to getting my drains removed, I was almost in tears. Apparently my body is still producing to much fluid to be removed. And I didn't want to hear that shit. Man these tubes are getting on my nerves, It's uncomfortable to sleep, It's uncomfortable when I'm woke, and trying to find something to wear that's can go over the drain tubes, is a whole nother story.....

But since I've seen the Dr. my body has been producing less fluids, and I so happy that today I will be getting 2 of my tubes removed..and hopefully the last one will be out soon. You just don't know how happy I am...I am looking forward to sleeping tonight. and just getting dressed with out the tubes. I don't want much, I just want to put on Jeans and a T shirt, without all worrying about if I squeezing the tubes...

Back to School Dr.'s Appt.

On Monday 8/24/09 I took my daughter to the Dr. to get her back to school physical. And I am proud to say she is just perfect..(that came from her Dr.) She weighs 51 lbs. and is 3 foot 11..Yes that's tall for a 6 yr old. And she is skinny. But I'm am very happy that she is healthy...Thank You Jesus!

She will be starting 1st grade this year.

oh let me tell you this. When I told my baby I was taking her to the Dr. She said she wanted to go the Brown Man....(her Dr. is Black...but in her eyes you are either Brown, White, Asian or Beige...lol).

If You Need Something...

How come when people get sick or something..People always say if you need something let me know. I know they mean good, but really, why do I have to ask. If you know I'm down why don't you just come over and do something. Because secretly you hope I don't need anything. (right).

I mean you know that I have dishes, I have kids, I have a bathroom, I have to go grocery shopping, etc. So don't ask what can you do just do it.

Actually I'm really glad I can do stuff on my own. Because I would be shit out of luck. But I'm not mad, I'm just saying...

and on the other hand if you really want to do something, send me some money because this disability check just ain't cutting it...

My Church!

When I went to church on Sunday. I decided not to wear my wig. I've been bald since the end of April. But for some reason when I go to church I wear my wig. Mainly because I haven't told them I had breast cancer....


Ok let me back up and tell you why...

I was debating on telling my church, because I felt like nobody there really knew me. I've been a member there for years, but I haven't really been involved in the church activities...My pastor knows me by name...but a lot of members of the church don't...(ok that's my reasons and I'm sticking with it). I had talked to my mom about it and she said just call them.

So I did...and WOW...ok this is what happened...first our church secretary's name is Marsha, and I'm not going to say anything bad about her. I'm just gonna say she show favoritism. Ok so I called and Marsha answered the phone. I tell her my situation and she asks my name, so I say "Tamiko Edwards", and then she says "I don't think I know you" I'm like "OK"...then she gets quiet. So I said "Never mind I'm good" and I hung up the phone. And I'm thinking WOW this is why I didn't want to call. I mean even if she didn't know me, you couldn't look me up, I know I'm on the roster...I"m pretty sure they keep a record when I give them money...

So what I do..I stopped going to that church for a couple of weeks, I either stayed home or visited a different church. I was seriously thinking of changing churches...

But when my mom got here, she wanted to go to church, so I took her to my church. I decided not wear my wig. And all the other times I've been since I've been bald, I've worn a wig. But this Sunday I decided not too. Even though I knew it would raise some questions, but it was just to damn hot outside.

When I first got there, I saw the lady from my support group who is also a survivor and we chatted for about 5 mins or so. Then we went into the church, everything was fine no questions about my hair. I'm glad because I can't lie in the church.

Then after church, I saw my friend Felicia (who is also a Deaconess at the church), and the Nurse at our church, (Don't know her name). Well they both had questions about the bald head. First the nurse and I told her and she was upset I didn't tell the church, and she took my number and said she would check on me....Now my friend, that's another subject she said she has been looking for me, cause I hadn't been to church. And the church didn't have my phone number or my new addy. So I tell her the situation on what happened when I called. And come to find out Marsha has been in trouble for mistreating people lately...hmmmmm...So I gave her my new number, and she called another Deaconess over there to talk to me, apparently she is a breast cancer survivor also. And they said they would come and pray for me, and they felt bad because they had missed my surgery.

So I will see how these church people follow through. And then I will make my decision if I need to find me a new church or not....

My First Day Out....

So Saturday 8/22/09 was my first day out since my surgery on Monday 08/17/09. I was going to try and stay in the house until my Dr.s appointment today 08/25/09. But man I had cabin fever. I hate sitting in the house, and plus the nurse called from the Hospital and gave me the go ahead.

But the challenge was trying to find something to wear to hide my drain tubes. So that cut out 85% of my wardrobe. Because I mostly have fitted clothes. And to put these drain tubes under a fitted shirt, well let's just say I look CRAZY...lol...I'm so glad I held on on this one shirt that kinda flares out. (my husband says it makes me look pregnant) but it looks just fine over my drain tubes.

Ok so I took my mom to the mall shopping. (that's all she does I swear). anyways we stayed about 2 hours or so. Let the kids play at the play area. Then we went to Target to shop some more. and then home...

By the end of the night I was hit. But I got up Sunday and went to church. I feel if I'm well enough to go to the mall. Then I'm well enough to go to the Lord's house. And I'm glad I did...Church was Glorious...I even cried a little. You know how the Baptist do, they touch on everything, from kids, finance, health and family.......to make sure they have everybody in tears...