5 days to Surgery, 2 days til Mom comes...

It's Wednesday and I don't have any appointments this morning.

I went to the Dr. on Monday for a pre opt exam..

I went to the Oncologist yesterday so she can check my red and white blood cells. Since my last chemo treatment.

Even though I don't have any appointments. I still have so much to do before surgery. I should say things I have to do before my mom gets her on Friday...so technically I only have today, tomorrow and Friday morning to get things done. ...So I will be busy little bee around here.

Today I'm going to wash, I need to run to walmart and get a couple of things. Maybe I will even cook. I need to clean both bathrooms. I need to finish cleaning my daughters room. Man I think that's enough for today ya think?

My Mother's other Child...

I guess you can call her my sister. But I beg to differ sometimes..

Ok so me and my mother's other child is 8 yrs apart...I'm 36 and she's about to be 44. And we don't get along, because of various reason, and yrs and yrs of hurt and pain. When I was younger I didn't like her at all. I love her but I don't like her actions, her behavior or her attitude . (lol you get the pic)..Did I mention she's also an alcoholic..

And it's not like I ever even had a chance to build a relationship with her. Apparently she wishes I was never born. And she has said this on numerous occasions. So I've been fighting with her all my life. The main reason is she wants to be my momma's baby.. But you know what SHE CAN BE. Even though I'm the youngest. I'm far from a baby..and she can have the position. It doesn't bother me at all..and hasn't in a long time!!!

I'm so envious of women who have these wonderful relationships with their sister. I wish we could just talk sometimes, with out arguing. Go shopping, take trips together..Just be able to turst one another. I wish me and my sister could be close. So instead I try to build these relationships with other women to try to fill this void. Some has been positive but the majority of them didn't work out, for one reason or another.

And even though my sister and I don't get along, I try to be there when she needs me. Even though we live so far apart (I'm in Minn, she's still in Mich).

Ok now the problem at hand...

Over the years, I've never asked my sister for much. Mostly because we never really gotten along right. But don't get me wrong, I love her, she's my only sibling. When I got married she didn't want to be there, it's like I had to pay her to be there (I paid for her dress among other things she needed) anyways...when she got married I was there...When her and husband had major probs..I didn't make it to mich..but I helped her thru it..I called and talked and talked until things were better...When she had surgery.. didn't nobody told me until she was coming home from the hospital...had I known before I would have been there...Why I was the last to know...who knows..

any ways

So now I'm having surgery on Monday the 17th. And my mom will be here on Friday the 14th. Now mind you I just talked to my sister last week or so. She told me that she would come down for a week, but their finances wasn't right at this moment...understandable right... So yesterday I find out that my sister and her husband is going to Alabama on the same day my mom is coming to Minn...WTF....(now remember I said she wants to be my mom's baby)...Supposedly the story is, since mom will be out of town, then she doesn't want to be in town...(you can miss me with the bullshit)

Ok so I called her, to ask her cause I couldn't belive this shit. And of course she confirmed it. So my question to her was, how in the hell you can afford to go to Alabama, but not Minnesota. She claimed the trip was already planned, (bullshit). But she knew I was having surgery since April, not the specific date, but I'v always knew it was in Aug. But part of the prob is her punk ass husband don't really like this side of the family. And he doesn't want her interacting with us...also bullshit...

So at this point, I'm so cool on her. I've done a lot of praying over the years to get to a point where I can learn to love her for who she is, and not the person I want her to be. I've cut off a lot of people that I thought I needed to fill this void of having a sister. (there are couple more who needs to go...and I'm still workin on that). I will continue to pray...because if I don't this could get real ugly...

Miley Cyrus Pole Dancing?

Ok, let me start by saying, I'm not a fan of Hannah Montanna/Miley Cyrus.

I know she is supposedly the next big thing..Whateva...

What I want to know is what does she have to do for Disney to drop her ass. She has already posed for provocative pics. She has dated a grown man who was 20 yrs old...you do know she is 16 right. And now on the kids choice award, not only was he dressed like a hooker, but she was pole dancing too...Yeah pole dancing.

Now had she been brown. she would be unemployed right now!

All I know I won't spend another dime on anything she's on.

I swear we need more brown singers/actors other than Soulja boy tell'em.

My Cousin/Sister

So I have this cousin her name is Sandra Rush. I love my cousin but a couple of years ago we lost contact. I won't go in to details why. (really because the details are kinda fuzzy..lol). But she sent me an email today. I almost cried when I read it. She said she missed me and wished we could be close again among other things. I'm so glad she reached out to me. I mean I'm really glad she did, because I miss her and I love her so much. I don't even have a reason why I didn't reach out to her first....(I am kinda stubborn)

I won't let this opportunity past to get to know her again. To share and bond with her. To just talk. We've missed out on so much and for what? Neither one of us really knows why. I do know she loves to travel so maybe she will come see me in Minnesota (she lives in Alabama). I would really love to see her and have her meet my daughter, and my husband cause she's never met him either.

Thank you so much San. I love you...you know you really my sister and not my cousin.

Smooches

Ms. Miko

Tamiko....

So the other day I was on FaceBook..(yeah I know I'm always on FB) but anyways. I decided to search for people named Tamiko. Why? Because almost every time I tell people my name is Tamiko they act like they have only heard of Tamika's but never a Tamiko. I know it's a Japanese name and all..but come on, I know there are more Tamiko's out there.

ok back to my search

OMG! pages and pages of Tamiko's came up. I was so excited...I just started clicking and clicking requesting Tamiko's to be my friend. Now I have about 20 people named Tamiko on my friends list. I had couple decline...(why would they deny themselves my friend request, puzzles me..lol) mostly because they only wanted people they knew on their friends list..but it didn't bother me. Because if your name is Tamiko, I'm pretty sure you're a little funny acting...(not really an act, we are funny with people...also Fabulous!!!) because including myself...

oh before I forget to tell you. We have our own group on FB..(of course founded by yours truly)..the only rule is your name has to be TAMIKO...(and yes is has to be spelled that way!) and we are 17 members strong and counting...

but you know what's funny...they all said that people act like the name is so rare...I guess we kinda are...

Holla!

Well Tomorrow...

Is the start of a long week, before my surgery which is Aug 17th. I have a Dr's appt. at 8:2o a.m. with my regular Dr.... apparently I have to have a pre opt physical. I really don't know what that is, all I know is I have to have one before I can have surgery. So why am I still up? Because I'm crazy...but I'll make it..


Tomorrow I will start my surgery count down. What that means is that I have to get everything that I need to be done before surgery in one short week. But when I look at it, I don't really have much to do.



I'm officially done school shopping for my princess. So the hubs won't have to worry with that. Because he's not a shopper. And when I say done, I mean supplies, clothes shoes. She can start tomorrow...unfortunately she doesn't start until Sept 8th. I need to wash, and get this spare room together for when my mom get here on Friday. I need to braid my daughter's hair so it can hold for 2 weeks. I got groceries today so that's done. And I got couple of more things that need to be done...can't think of them now, but I know they need to be done..lol



I will also be posting all week to keep my friends/readers updated on my week and how I'm feeling about surgery..



At this point I feel fine. I'm not even that nervous, I thought I would be. I will prob get nervous when I get closer to the 17th. The only thing that's bothering me is...I hate to have to depend on other people. I'm so use to doing things for my self.