Opening My Eyes....

I started on Dec 13, doing a 40 days of Thanks and Praying 3 times a day for 40 days..and I am only 6 days in and God has definitely been revealing some things and some people in my life that I need to change.. Things that I had been struggling with are now clear... I mean if it's only been 6 days I am so excited about the days to come..

I have mixed feelings about turning 40, but mixed or not I am turning 40 on Jan 21, 2013 ...but I want, rather feel I need to change some things, about me... to help me be a better more Fabulous Me... and when you want or feel the need to Change the only person who can help you is God. And since I know that I am definitely taking full advantage of it, with an open heart, and a open soul.

I know that this journey can only make me better... and prepare me for my 40's. This a new chapter in my life and since I'm not getting any younger, I want to welcome it with open arms. Now during this process somethings and some people will stay around and other things and people won't... shoot some people haven't even made it to day 6 (which is today) let's see how many will make it to day 10...lol

One thing is for certain though, at the end of the 40 days, if it's in God's will I will definitely be Standing and my light WILL be so bright you will need your sunglasses and still won't see my full Shine...

MY!!!! Facbook... (focus on the word MY!)

Ok My name it Tamiko (Storey) Edwards... and I am not alway politically corriect. Nor do I aim to be, especially on My Facebook... (focusing again on MY!!) Facebook is a form of entertainment me to me, along with some seriousness and some newsworthy things as well as a platform to vent, whether it be radomly venting or if you are venting toward a certain person...either way when you or I log on it clearly say "What's on YOUR mind" now to my hometown Friends (Flintstones) and old TDF Song my come to mind...but for others there are a number of things that may come to mind... Because the Question "What's on YOUR mind" is a very broad question and depending on your frame of mind when you open YOUR facebook, anything and I mean anything could end up on YOUR Facebook... at least I know anything could end up on MY Facebook...

I've been know to post some Nice stuff, some Serious stuff, some Stupid stuff, some Fierce pictures, Some Uplifitng things, some NOT so Nice stuff, some Off the wall stuff etc.. you know just stuff... and one thing about me, 85% of the things I post are just random thoughts that are in my head, (if you only knew the things that go thru my head...smh..) but since it's MY Facebook I should be able to post anything (right) and I am ready for any comments that come along...whether you agree or not...and it doesn't matter to me if you do or don't... I'm not going to get mad, nor am I going to facebook beef with you, because you are entitled to YOUR OWN opinion just like I am... although sometimes I feel like I'm not entitled to one, if MY post is not politically or correct, or not nice at all... somebody some where feels the need to tell me how mean or I'm no better than nobody else, or something crazy to that effect....

One thing I've learned since being on facebook, if somebody post something that hits home with you... if you never respond to the post, Nobody will ever know your situation... (just an FYI)

I see plenty of things as I go down my newsfeed that could easily be about me or something in my life... I don't get offened, nor do I instantly think they are talking about me. I don't think that the person who posted think they are better than the next person...maybe that's just how they feel today...sometimes I respond sometimes I keep scrolling... thats the whole Joy of Facebook, the fact that you can just keep scrolling...and another JOY is the Unfriend Option ~_~

I don't think I'm better than anyone, I'm a sinner just like everybody else, and don't let me start couting my flaws...whew  1, 2, 3,.......111.....321... yeah I'm going to stop there, cause that list goes on and on...

So I'm going to say once again, it's MY Facebook and it ask me "What's on Your mind" (meaning MY mind)  just like Yours means You (really it does)... I don't Facebook to please others, I Facebook cause I like too, let me say that one more time I don't Facebook to please others, I Facebook because I like it....and I've come to realize some people are on my Facebook just to see what I may or may not say...

AND.....

 At the end of the day, If you delete me I won't feel any type of way about you, and I will still smile and wave at you if  I see you in the Real World...

Day 2 of 40 Days of Thanks....

Thank you for My Husband, My Lover, My Best Friend Adrian Edwards, he loves me just the way I am, he allows Me to be Me.. Sometimes I don't know if that's a good or a bad thing.. But either way I'm Thankful

We have had our ups and downs and way downs..but seem to still come out with our love on top.. I love him and he loves me...and I'm looking forward to growing old with him and once again I say Thank you Jesus...

#1/21/13 Fiercely Fabulous and 40

Sandy Brook Elementary School in Newton CT......

Today I was at work, working and Facebooking and I came across a post of one of my friends that said something like..."OMG who would kill kids" instantly I got a chill in my body cause the thought of killing kids is just crazy...at least so I thought... as I continued to read I saw more and more post about, killing kids, and a school. So I immediately went to my trusty news source MSN and low and behold the top story was about a gunman going into an ELEMENTARY School and killing kids and teachers, and some parents... I was like Whaaat the Hell... who does this...my heart was instantly heavy, and the more I read, the more my eyes began to water...

 

 All I was thinking is who would do such a thing, and it seem like with every update there were more and more bodies... with a grand total of 28 people with 20 being kids... yes kids..kindergarten kids...(Lord please be with this whole community)

ok now what kind of coward would kill kids... cause you definitely have to be a coward..these are babies who can't or hasn't hurt any damn body...especially this fool...and he killed his own momma in this tragic, tragic event...Who does this...well his name is or I should say was Ryan Lanza...and another thing that really bothers me is, how come when these delusional people snap out and kill people, they end up killing themselves.... UGH that just burns me up.. if you wanted to kill your own fool self then that's what the hell you should've done, why take all these innocent people, especially these babies...

And the even sadder part is the aftermath...All the parent's who lost their babies, all the other babies that witness their classmates die, and the babies that even heard the gunshots... this selfish son of a bitch has done something to all these babies that they will never forget and will need counseling and therapy and will prob have night terrors ....smh

My heart goes out that whole community...I said a prayer for them today and I will continue to pray for them, I couldn't even fathom or understand this kind of pain....

God please, put your arms around this community as they work towards healing...

Elementary school massacre

Yep I'll be 40 in 40 days..........

I have a sister who is 8 years older than I am, and I can remember when she turned 30... I told her damn you're old...lol and here I am about to be 40 and I don't even feel like I've grown all the way up. Funny how times flies and it will pass you by if you are not paying attention...

So yeah I'm almost 40, let me say that again Almost 40 hmmmmm I've been preparing myself for 40 every since I turned 39 and I still don't feel like I'm ready...but I don't have a choice cause as long as I keep living, it's going to keep approaching...

So in preperation for this day January 21, 2013 when I do officially turn 40, I'm going to do somethings, First I am going to Pray 3 times a day for 40 days focusing on Family, Future,Self enhancement,(wife, mother, friend etc)  I am going to do a 40 days of Thanks (because God has been so good to little ole ME), and I am going to amp up my work out and do 3 days a week of cardio... which is probably going to be the hardest, but it needs to be done.

I decided to do these things for a couple of reasons, I've been thru a lot in the last 3 years, I've had Breast Cancer, 2 major surgies, 1 minor surgery, and I've been shot... so I am thankful to be alive... let me stay that again I am Thankful to be Alive... very Thankful

Also I want to just want my 40's to be different for me than my 30's or my 20's for that fact..I've done a lot of things and been hurt and have hurt, so I want do be hurt less and do way less hurting, so with this Self enhancement I am going to cut off somethings and people in my life..that either shouldn't be there, or have surved thier purpose in my life...

I just want to be the Best Me I can BE...

Yep I'll be 40 in 40 days, and I'm going to bring it in with a bang...

#1/21/73 Fiercely Fabulous and 40....Watch out World Grown up Tamiko is definitely coming....