With Friends like these.....

So since I've been diagnosed with cancer, I've been looking at things differently....

Me for one, because this is truly an humbling experience...

And....
Secondly My friendships......

And WOW is all I can say....

Sometimes I don't know how I even became friends with some of these people.
So let me just tell you a little about me, when I call somebody my friend, I really mean it, I care deeply for my friends, I have my flaws, and my issues, but I am a good friend. Hell everybody should have friend like me. I do need to let you know I am an aggressive friend, I don't candy coat stuff, I tell you stuff in the raw. I give good advice, (at least that is what I'm told, I think I missed my calling)...If you need me, I do whatever I can to be there for you. If you need to vent, cry or just talk, you can call me. If you're sick or something has upset you, I will call or come visit you to check on you. I've let friends stay with me and my family rent free. (Hell I got a friend staying with me now...) I've taken friends back who has back stabbed me..( I know I know crazy right). I like to see my friends doing good. I try to stay positive and upbeat. I mean who wouldn't want a friend like me.

Ok now my friendship flaws.....

If you do something stupid, I will talk about your ass. let me say that again, if you do something stupid just plain stupid, I will talk about your ass. I may not say your name but I will discuss it. lol, if you piss me off, I will snap the hell out, that simple. but I think my positive out weighs my negative.

So with that said. Since I've been sick, I can't believe how my so called friends has been treating me. Not all of them have been a disappointment. but for the most part. I'm cool on these bitches. half of them don't call, or hasn't even been by. But they can send a forwarded text with no hesitation. Do they realize I have cancer, and my husband works second shift. I mean do they really care. I'm so glad I haven't needed any real help, cause I would be assed out for real. I do have a couple who has come through, and the others have just fallen short. Why do I need them, or do I need them...hmmmm....Sometimes I feel like strangers care more about me. (Bad, I know). So what is a girl to do? I'll tell you exactly what I'm going to do. I'm going to just play it cool, for now, because I'm already under stress with my cancer and all, among other things.

But.....

In about 6 to 8 months when I'm cancer free. (Cause I will be). I will be cool on these so called friends. And letting them go won't be hard at all. Then I will have room for some new friends, positive, strong, encouraging friends.


Holla
Ms. Miko


P.S.

If I'm doing this friendship thing wrong somebody please let me know.

I am not my Hair!! nor my Breast Cancer!

As we all know, when a person starts chemo treatments, the most common side effect is hair loss. And I'm not exception to the rule. With my first treatment, nothing really changed appearance wise. I looked as Fabulous as can be, as least when I was woke. lol. But with the second round of treatments, a day or so later I was brushing my hair, and it was coming out in clumps.

I was a little bummed out at first, but I knew it was coming. I had kinda prepared my self for it mentally. Because I knew it was going to happen. So the next day, I decided to go ahead and cut it off. I went into the bathroom grabbed the scissors, and started cutting. Then I asked my supportive husband to assist me. He got out the clippers and cut away. I almost cried, but I held it in.

I mean I'm Fabulous I can ROCK a bald head. let me say that again I mean I'm Fabulous I can ROCK a bald head. I always wanted to cut it off, but my husband wouldn't approve. Granted I wouldn't went all the way bald, but it would have been really short though.

So now that is all off, I feel kinda liberated, like I don't have to prove anything anymore. ( I feel like I need a hat, because my head cold, but that's another story). As a women, if you can rock a bald head out in the world and still feel Fabulous, you're pretty much the BOMB.. lol....at least I am!!

I'm Good Today

Well it's been 4 days since my chemo treatments, and I feel just fine. but the last couple of days I wasn't feeling to good. It hasn't been like the first round of chemo though. After the first round I was comatose for at least 4 days, I don't really remember what happened in those days. But this round was a lot different, I didn't sleep the 4 days aways, I just kinda napped it away, but I remember everything, I even got to attend my daughter's recital. Thank Jesus!. Some other things I had to sit out for, but all in all I feel just fine. Yesterday I had a bad stomach ache, and I was nausea, but today I'm good.

I just want to say Thank you for all the prayers and encouraging words. I really appreciate them. I love all of my readers

Smooches
Ms Miko

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She's a natural

On May 6 my daughter had a dance recital. And she is a natural just like her momma. (yeah I said it). She does ballet, tap and jazz at just 5 yrs old. They were all cute and dressed in blue. They had 3 costume changes all in blue. I swear girls were made to dance. they were too adorable.

(my baby is in the middle)

I wish she had a dance recital every month. Right now she is dancing through the school program. But next year she will go to the official dance school with the big girls. Hopefully one day she will do competitions, but if she doesn't it's just fine. I just want her to have fun.

And I am thanking God that I was able to attend her recital the day after my chemo. I was a little tired, but not to tired to miss my babies performance. Thank you Jesus!

2 down 6 to go...Chemo Treatments that is...

Well I had my 2nd dose of Chemo on May 5, 2009. And I can honestly say I don't want to do that again. But I have 6 more to go. And I promise I am going to be strong about it, not only for me but for my husband and kids. Especially my princess. And as I said before I was pretty cute when I walked in with my head held high. I took my chemo like a champ, even though that's the last place on earth I would rather be. Personally I wish I could be shopping, but that just me.

But I did get some good news from my Dr. She said that my lump has shrunk, a lot even though I had only had 1 treatment. And she also so that she if for certain that I will make a full recovery. Not that I was worried, I know GOD has something better in store for me and my family.

I don't have time to feel sorry for my self, I'm to busy Fighting.

Smooches

Ms Miko

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